2 years, Ellen i miss you but we're all going to be together again... i love you and i know you're smiling down on me~!!!

Guide me Ellen! Guide me to the Cross!

hey everybody~ happy new years!!!!   just thought i would say hey to all of you and let everyone know how things are going....

umm... 2005 was something else.... it was quite a year... from my 1st year of college and part of  my second, meeting new friends... break up to make up... having horrible fights, and hating myself for hurting so many people... but there were some good times....

sharing special memories w/ the one who i wanted to spend forever w/... finding out the hard way that love isn't always what you think...rebuilding old friendships that was so brutely destroyed, and seeing who my real friends are....

emmi, thanks for all the fun times... zaxby';s on tuesdays, those crazy nites at deans...doing everythinng in pairs... shoppping for halloween costumes, planning parties and cleaning up broken glass, and party fowls... lol...

jamie and meg, regina~  shedaisy on 8-40.... little good-byes, having those parking lot talks about who knows what... parties,  parties and NEW YEARS PARTIES!!!   i love you both and we have so much to be thankful and i'm so thankful that you two are a part of my life... REGINA, CLASS OF 2006!!! IT'S YOUR YEAR HONEY!!!

to all my  b oys!  MIKE, CARL, JOEY, MATTY, CODY, JEFF, JOSH, JONNY AND THUMP...  sleepovers, taco-bell at all hours of the nite,  1ST experiences and just hanging out w/ my bestfriends inthe whole world... you group of guys... THERE ARE JUST NOT ENOUGH ROOM TO WRITE HOW MANY MEMORIES I'VE MADE W/ YOU ALL!!! 

SO TO 2005~!!!  GOOD-BYE!!! GOOD BYE TO ALL THE HELL AND MISSERY WE ALL WENT THROUGH.....

AND TO THE WONDERFUL 2006! TO A YEAR, WE CAN ALL REMEMBER FOREVER!!! LETS DO IT W/ A SMILE AND LOVE WHAT GOD IS GOING TO BLESS US W/... I LOVE ALL OF YOU... NO MATTER WHAT 2006 BRINGS, LETS DO IT TOGETHER!!!!

well guys, its been a long time, but after prayer, great friends and a fresh, clear outlook on life... i'm back!!!

i am ready for school... my future and the man of my dreams.... i have met new people, made GOOD LIFE CHOICES!! and i'm ready to be me again! i feel so free and relieved... i'm here to say... this is it.. the old amanda is gone and the one you will see from now on is going to knock your socks off.... believe me.. i surprised myself.... lol...

I have met someone who made me believe in myself again... someone who encourages me to be me.. and not care... someone who wants to  be a part of my life as much as i want to be a part of his... no more wishy washy amanda... welcome to me... the new and improved amanda i was so long ago...

Please pray for me and continue to encourage me to be myself... i want to thank you all who have pushed me to "stand back up"...

*Jamie*, i will "stand back up"... b/c its "time i've had enough"....thank you for your encouragement... you don't know how much you mean to me....

*MIke Jones*, thanks for EVERYTHING.... i can't even list all the things you've done...

*Corey*.... thanks for being there w/ me... not  there for me, but w/ me.... its a blast.... and i look forward to everything that is to come... right down to tetris! lol.., you never cease to amaze  me!

wow!! what a CHristmas!!! it was a great christmas this year...

Wednesday nite was christmas w/ meg, o0o so much fun!!

Christmas Eve~....that morning w/ mike... thank you so much, it was the sweetest present ever!!!!    fun times at NAnny's and then fun w/ my brothers!!!  I got my christmas present.... Ricky's home!!! that made my christmas!!!

Christmas Day~ dinner w/ the family, and hanging out w/ JAmie...blaring Miranda Lambert and having o0o0o so much fun!!!

Christmas Nite.... hmmm.... QUALITY TIME.... long talks and laughs about anything and everything... much needed time and completly wraped up the best Christmas Ever! 

Hope everyone had a great christmas... i saw most of you but not everybody so merry christmas to all of you!!!

I love you!!

You k now, when you're having a bad week.. .and you're just really in a bad mood... GOd always has a way to lift you back up... i have been down in the dumps lately... but i got a message from someone who encouraged me to be strong and it totally turned me around... a small little message complely changed my view point on so many things... Thru her, God has taught me a lot over the years, and i want to thank her for being such a Godly influence in my life..  '

I just want to thank you for pushing me not to give up... and for your prayers... Thank you for loving me and being that AMAZING sister in Christ that i wish i could be to you ... i hope one day we can build back what i so deeply destroyed....

GUys, you never know who is praying for you and thinking about you as they pray... i want you all to know that you are all in my prayers and i love each and everyone of you...

this Christmas is going to be one to refocus on the real meaning of the holiday and to refocus on life in general.., what we ALL want for our future and the kind of life we wanna live...    Merry Christmas Everybody~!